Allegiance

Resounding feeling of nausea in your gut? Missing deadlines, having trouble getting to work on time or secluding yourself for no apparent reason? Angry when you should be content, jealous when you've got all you need or being critical when you want to support everyone you know? These emotional indicators are telling you that something is not proceeding as you expected. Do you pay attention to signs, symbols and sixth senses? These feelings are here to give you clear guidance regarding instances for which you may not have previously dealt or where their may be concealed difficulties and misalignments with your guidelines.

Do you trust yourself? Do you wield the guidon of your moral and physical judgment? Will you pay attention to these emotional alerts or ignore them and race headlong into the unintended? And if you act in such a manner knowing these things are you not more culpable than the unknowing? I am the only one that is responsible for my actions but I am not the only one that will suffer if I make a misjudgment or act poorly, especially with regard to the innocent or unwitting. I dream of myself being a man that acts out of wisdom and care for myself and those around me.

I cannot both adhere to a policy of making sure that every one else is pleased with my every action and at the same time maintain my moral, emotional, spiritual and physical principles and goals. I cannot make the same mistake of my past by wanting love and attention so much that I overlook all else. I truly love people and have a very large place in my heart for those who care and have rare talents to make the lives of those around them brighter. Selfishness is all about thinking that acting either through poor guidelines or outside of your established principles effects only you. I do not wish to be a bull in a China closet crashing everything around me into chaos just because I can exercise my power. I care enough to stay away from fragile things if I know that I have the potential to shatter them for my own purposes or because I cannot control my actions. Being true to yourself means understanding your principles, your strengths and your weaknesses and acting accordingly by following your feelings as guide to your actions. I cannot be something other than I am just because someone else wishes it so, for that is being true to someone else.
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