Accept it

It's like the way that you look, without opting for surgery to change your face, you just have to come to grips with your appearance. The same thing goes for your emotional state. Unless you make the decision to seek professional reformation of your character, you are stuck with the feelings you have. For me the choice was made out of desperation. My life had come to a precipice and the small winding path that led alongside the crevasse got narrower as it continued. I could see bridges off in the distance spanning the canyon, promising of another side to the journey, but the path I was on clearly would never provide me access to any crossing point. I made a choice. I was not going to go down the current path I had constructed for my life. I was going to seek whatever guidance, information or wisdom would allow me to find the trail leading to one of those bridges. My first act was to get off the path I was on without providing access back to it. I knew that once I started this journey there had to be no way to turn back, because it is always so easy when all else fails to fall back on previous behavior. So I climbed out on the smooth rock wall and detonated the trail behind me. Oh, my Lord instant shock and fear. I tried desperately to climb backwards but the handholds were too far apart and shallow to get a good grasp, I had but one choice, go onward. I felt as if I were dying. I imagined letting go, but knew that I had climbed out for a reason. I prayed for God to send me some assistance and it came in the most unusual form, my Father. For whatever reasons my Dad had been sent to guide on this precarious climb to find the other paths. He came in the guise of a man that had discovered another way of life for himself than the one he instructed us to use. He told me that he himself had been investigating the power of dream translation and that he felt on the brink of tremendous personal discovery. This instruction was very difficult for us because he needed to get out on the rock cliff with me to guide me through. We all know what they tell lifeguards about trying to get a drowning person out of the pool, if at all possible don't get in the water with them because they may pull you down as well. It almost killed him I think because he had to suffer through his own failings as a Father, man and friend in order to help me get there. I tried to point out the best handholds for him as well when he could not readily see them. Thank God he made the choice to help me. Otherwise I probably would still be out there or fallen long ago. Then a messenger came in the form of my dreams as my Father said that it would. Angel in Greek means messenger by the way. This messenger showed me pictures of how I had gotten on the skinny path I was following and directions on how to get to the next path. I kept climbing all the time fighting my absolute fear of falling into the chasm. Everyone that knew me got tired of hearing me scream for help because to them my chasm was not visible and the skinny path I was on looked pretty sturdy. They wrote me off as a lost cause or got frustrated with my need to the point of forgetting my name. I feel for them, they knew not how to help. The dreams became clearer as I neared the next bend of the canyon wall. I started to lose some of the fear for being out there so long. Then it all fell apart and the face of the cliff fell away, because as it turned out I had been trying to climb upward to get back to the path I was on. I missed it so. I fell and the oddest thing happened, someone grabbed my hand. the Lord had sent someone to save me and in my shock I could see his face clearly. It was the hand of Jesus. He carried me to the other side of the canyon and put my feet on a path wide as the canyon was deep, made of solid granite with a spectrum of colorful growth lining it borders. And as I walked the path I began to meet others on the same trail and they too were thankful for the chance to get to a better road. We stopped and were thankful and then we were told that our job was to go back to the chasm and watch for others clinging to the opposite side and as my Father had unknowing done show them the way to the right path. On which side of the canyon are you?